I’m going to be very honest with you right now. I haven’t been writing.
Outside these blog posts, which I tend to write in a rush at the wee hours of the morning when I can’t sleep, I haven’t written anything else.
Every story concept feels blah. Every word uninspiring. I can’t plot anything. I can’t even free write anything. And trust me when I say I have tried. I’ve joined writing sprints and live streams. I’ve talked to friends about their works in hopes it inspires me. I’ve joined discord groups. I have tried and started and failed the milwordy challenge.
And I think I overwhelmed myself.
There’s a point when you push too hard. I’m dealing with a lot of mental healthy issues and physical issues right now. I hurt myself back in December and I’m still working through that. And while all that’s going on, I kept thinking I could push on with my usual tasks, my usual habits.
Giving Yourself Time
If you’re like me and you’ve hit a bit of a roadblock in any part of your life, you need to give yourself time. Like I need to give myself time for this injury to heal, I need to give myself time to get back into writing. I can’t beat myself up over the fact that I haven’t written anything in months. I can’t beat myself up over the fact that the past two years of writing challenges or goals haven’t been achieved the way I want to. Being upset with yourself and where you were won’t help you get where you want to be.
Honestly, I should be absurdly proud of myself for even getting a blog post out every week. My sleep schedule is very poor. I am going to a thousand doctor’s appointments. Getting this one writing thing done every week is something to be proud of.
It’s like a weight loss journey. It’s like physical therapy. None of it comes over night. And every little bit helps.
Taking the time you (and in this case I) need is important. I’m good at giving you this advice but it’s hard for me to follow myself.
Getting Out of a Rut
So what do we do to move forward? It’s not just taking the time to heal or recover. We need to create ourselves a plan to follow, but a plan with baby steps. Think about when you want to eat healthier. You don’t just toss out every delicious, but absolutely bad for you food. You start by limiting desserts or choosing healthier breakfasts. If you want to save money and get out of debt, you start by figuring out your finances and putting away a little bit at a time.
We take baby steps.
I’m going to start by redoing the entire milwordy concept. I’m going to take the next two weeks building myself a tracking system (I’m a huge nerd who likes stats okay). This way I have a fresh start on what I want to accomplish this year (or until March 2022).
I’m going to figure out which projects still spark some joy within myself. I’m going to take the time to set myself up to being able to write them.
I’m going to clean my writing space. I haven’t cleaned up my writing space in a while and I can definitely feel it. I’m one of those people that needs a relatively clean space to think. But the end of the process it’s a mess again, but at the start, everything should be in their place.
I’m also going to take the next two weeks to just heal. My injury isn’t going to go away over night, but I’m hoping it’ll get better. At least good enough for me to have a full night’s sleep. I’ll be getting some help with the pain by the end of this week, so I’m hoping for a much better experience with my chiropractic care starting next week.
I’m also going to allow for these down days. I’m going to allow for the cry sessions because I can’t do what I want to do. That I don’t feel inspired and everything just feels dull. I’m allowed those moments. But I’m going to have to remember that it isn’t the end. It isn’t the be all of my life.
And to you, my dear reader and friend, these ruts aren’t the end for you either. Be it in writing or in life, there will be better days. There will be progress. And I hope that I’m there to see it for you.
In the comments below, let me know if you’re struggling too or if you’ve strived over that block. Let me know about the things that brought you joy this past week, in writing or in life. And let each other know that it’s okay.
Next week will be a more positive post. I already have the concept rolling around in my brain. And I am looking forward to a more positive 2021. I look forward to more writing and more goals being achieved. I still have plenty of time.