For the past month I have…
- Written 12 commercial scripts
- Totalling approximately 1250 words
- Written 4 full blog posts and drafted about a half dozen more
- With over 6 thousand words total with all those posts
- And 0 out of 85,000 for my novel.
I am currently failing the 85K in 90 days challenge. And as write this blog post, my brain isn’t wanting to cooperate. It hasn’t cooperated with writing a novel in months. NaNoWriMo left me with about 10K words total and I hate every single one of them.
I am failing.
I am failing but that’s okay.
Writing is hard. Don’t let all those people you try to have small talk tell you otherwise. And don’t let every one of your writer friends who are finishing novels and getting published get you down. Shit happens. You will fail. That’s okay.
I have no real excuses. I have mild writer’s block that I just don’t want to push through. The past few weeks have been tough emotionally, but nothing I can’t get over. But I just haven’t made the word count.
Failure isn’t the end.
Tomorrow will still come, and in most cases, you’ll be able to keep going. Writing, in particular, is one of those beasts that just shows up when it’s the most inconvenient and leaves you on read when you’re circling the drain of self doubt. It’s okay.
You just need to keep moving forward.
Look at the positives and the solutions.
For me, January has been pretty good. I’ve had ups and downs, but I’ve kept my promise to write a blog post every Monday. Now it’s February and I’m powering through this one the night before it posts. Not the most organized, but dammit am I getting it done.
I did write a lot. I wrote over 7 thousand words words. Even if they don’t count towards the 85K I wrote them. They are mine.
I also still have two months left of this challenge. Counting today. I have 56 days left of the challenge. That’s 1518 words a day. That’s less than NaNoWriMo and honestly just as doable as the full 90 days.
Don’t beat yourself up.
It’s not the end of the world if I don’t make it to 85K. No one is holding something against me if I don’t make it. I do have people waiting to be beta readers for one of my ideas and friends who are just generally excited. But they will still be there for me when it’s done.
And even if I only write another 10K words this challenge. They are 10K more than I had before.
You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them.Maya Angelou
Deadlines and commitments are important, I agree. But know when you’ve stretched yourself too thin. Know when you’ve pushed yourself to the max. In this case, do not kill yourself for your writing. We want to celebrate the book with you. The world will wait.
Now I’m going to go attempt my 1518 words. Let me know in the comments below how you’re doing with the challenge, or any hurdles you’re trying to get past. We’re in this together.